41. Computer geek who loves the country life. Wiz at computers by day and DIY handyman by night. I am an adventurous, romantic, funny, full of energy type of INFJ person. I love women who shares the same views. I love to talk but I am a slow starter. Fell out of love too many times, just looking for a caring, loving and understanding woman. My Blog is about my wacky ideas, likes, dislikes and my adventures at country life and geekdom. If you don't enjoy the trip then change direction. (Twitter, Snapchat, kik, instagram - Timothyechtx72)
I still feel like crap. Since I was restless and couldn’t sleep, I ended up finishing the shower tile and applying the sandstone grout. Looks good but I was dizzy, sweaty and clammy. I think I did more harm than good. So I wish everyone a wonderful cuddly night while I sleep this off.
Some may not understand me or understand why my emotions bounce around. One thing I learnt in my 42 years is the fact that I am emotionally depended. Not to be confused with needy or clingy. I feel and feed off of my emotional surroundings. Whether it is in a group, one on one, at work or at home. I amplify the mood I am exposed to. If I am sick or sad I tend to change the mood of others by making them smile or laugh. As I raise the mood of others. I am lessening the worries and stresses in my life.
We all have problems in our lives and don’t want to hear someone like me telling you to smile or laugh at my silliness. I don’t mean to offend anyone or cause any discomfort. This is why I do what I do and I don’t mean any disrespect or misunderstanding.
It is hard for me to smile because it has been so long since I had something to smile about in my life as of late. I smile now because better days are yet to come and I am taking back the control I allowed others to have over me.
I agree with that as well, I think the strength comes from not letting the sadness stop them from smiling. I have done the whole put on a mask and smile bit. Growing up with an abusive father and seeing my mom cry then smile so we don’t know it is happening. Has taught me a lot about hiding behind a false face.